Wednesday, August 27, 2008

You've Got Mail!

This is a perfect picture of how I've approached my time with God the last couple days, with great anticipation of His Words to me. I NEED to hear what He has to say. As a matter of fact, I could use an actual letter from Him right about now.

I am 'waiting for the Lord' move on behalf of my girls. I am 'waiting for the Lord' guide me along the right path of care for them. Mostly, my soul is just 'waiting for Him' to come be with me. There are so many "uncertains" for us in the coming weeks -- and the planner-in-me gets quite agitated when too many uncertainties start floating around at the same time.

Olivia wanted to read out of her First Virtues for Toddlers before bed tonight. I asked her to choose the story; she picked "Duckling is Patient." This was a new word for her (patient), although not necessarily a new concept. It was fun listening to her roll it around on her tongue a few times before it was familiar to her or recognizable to us.

As we went through each scenario with Duckling, she would stop and try to find an experience she could relate to. "Oh! Like when I open the door for you and you go in first. I wait for you." And although I wanted to impart the many meanings of patience to her, each page seemed to shout out the same thing, Duckling needed to learn how to wait. [This is one of my favorite parts of having a toddler. All my deep and theological concepts about God get broken down to their simplest form in order for me to explain them to her. It's a good exercise for me.]

So I started thinking about what had me so disturbed today (and disturbed is putting in mildly). I believe it was made clear to me tonight that it all boils down to the waiting. Waiting to find out: Will this antibiotic work for the girls or will they end up in the hospital? Will Troy or I come back as "carriers" who've passed this infection on to our girls? Will we get to go on our already-paid-for family vacation? Will their second cultures come back negative so we can take ourselves out of quarantine? We won't know that for at least 2 weeks!

What is it that can get me through when I have no choice but to wait? Knowing my hope is in God. Today that just didn't seem tangible enough for oh me of little faith, which is why I suppose the psalmist wrote "and my hope is IN HIS WORD."

I need to go back to the promises I KNOW to be true -- I'll find them in His word -- and put my hope in those. This is my new and improved plan for tomorrow. I think it's a good one.

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hip chick said...

I know what you mean by that. Sometimes we just need to wait.

Kristi said...

It sounds like a great plan. Praising helps too. I just prayed for you and your girls this morning. May You find Him all sufficient today. Blessings to you.

Deanna said...

I am waiting.. sometimes stomping my feet... but waiting. I am glad God said we need to become like little children, because sometimes I definitely act like that. My hope is so in Him today.

Joyfull said...

Loved your post! What truth that we can all learn about waiting. What a blessing to read about your sweet girls opening their heart to God's Word. Thanks for sharing.

Amy said...

I love the post.... It is hard for me to do this..... I have to remind myself of this all the time.

Kellie said...

waiting is so very hard...I struggle with that as well...but I am praying for you and your girls.

Lana G! said...

What a great picture!

Waiting - that's a tough one isn't it - especially in our microwave society!

May the wait bring hope and reward!

Lorri said...

Such a cute picture. Thank you for sharing this!

JesusRulzMe said...

Dearest sister Rebecca,

This is my first time on your blog...I'll bookmark it so I can visit it again!

WOW! I LOVE your picture AND the Scripture passage.

Just wanted to encourage you with a thought and perhaps this is the "letter" from God you're waiting for...I sure hope so.

Here it is:

Waiting means more than waiting as we understand it. Waiting also means "serving". Like a "waiter" at a restaurant. But in order to be a good servant, you must study intently the One whom you are serving, while your "waiting" to act upon His will He will reveal to you in His perfect timing.

And dear sister, you already are serving as you "wait". For your words of encouragement, transparency of personal weakness gives way for Christ's light to shine through you to encourage your sisters today who are reading your blog.

You are not quarantined from the world and all the activities unavailable to you right now. No, instead, you are quarantined to be alone, privately, one on one with God who is jealous for you and your time.

So enjoy this wait, and wait on Him at the same time!

Bless you dear sister,

Laurie Ann said...

Loved the picture and verse. Praying for you as you "wait". Bless your heart! May God give you the patience of the duckling.

Melanie said...

The waiting is so hard... but so worth it in the end! I'm waiting on the Lord in a few areas of my life right now, too. I wish I could say that I always wait patiently... but, I am human and a human that isn't very patient. :) I'm learning, though -- slowly, but I am learning.

So glad you shared this today!

MyJourneyBack said...

When I saw the photo my first thought was if we were to vote for best one of the day. Your photo would get my vote. It is precious.
When I read your post it brought many emotions to me. I totally understand and your post said exactly what I am feeling right now. It is so hard sometimes to decern. And even harder to be patient. I keep leaning on God is teaching me something. And my impatience says I wish I could learn a little faster.
Thank you so much for sharing your heart today. I think that is the heart of all of us out here reading each others posts. I think we support each other and God uses us because many times there is no one else.
You Blessed me today. I hope the rest of your day is Blessed.

Amy, a redeemed sheep said...

Your plan is one we all need to heed. Thank you for sharing your heart.

Denise said...

Such a sweet picture and verse.

Jenileigh said...

Hugs! My husband preached a sermon Sunday night titled, A Wait Problem. It goes right along with what you're saying. You are all in my prayers.

Michele W. said...

Waiting is one of the hardest things we do... but it teaches us character as well. Thank you so much for sharing.

LauraLee Shaw said...

Oh, I am in tears. I'm going to pray right this moment for your family, for your fears, and for fulfillment to the waiting. Love the way you minister to others even in the midst of your own stuff.
I'm waiting on a situation to be resolved with my middle daughter as well...answers to tough spiritual questions that break my heart. God's timing is so perfect, and He is incredibly able to do more than we could ever ask or think or imagine. Counting on it for both of us.

LauraLee Shaw said...

Just a correction on my above post:
"fulfillment in Him during the waiting..." might be a bit more accurate. Sometimes when I'm having to wait, like I am right now, I want to turn to other things to fulfill me, connect with me right away. So I always pray that I will stay fulfilled in my relationship with Him, even when I'm hungry for an immediate answer to my prayer. Hope that makes better sense.

Audie said...

Thank you SO much for this post! I know that's it's from last week, but it was just what I needed to hear TODAY!
I used to say for a long, long time that patience was just not a virtue I possessed. Well, it doesn't matter if you want it, don't want it, want to learn it, etc., God will teach you in HIS timing! It's funny, he's really been teaching me the last 4 years, but this time around has got to be the hardest yet. Waiting to sell our house, and get approved for financing in another state. Where, my husband has been working 2-3 weeks off, with a few days home....a 16 hour drive.
So I know the 'floating in the air' and also 'flying by the seat of my pants'.
I hope ALL goes well for you, and I will be praying for you, your hubby and girls!
In Christ,